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New Mommy…Week 30

Tomorrow, I’ll have a 7 month old little boy.😊He’s somewhere between size 4 and 5 diapers and size 9 and 12 month clothes. Oh, he can’t wear most shoes because his feet are SO chunky πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ Currently, he seems to go to bed one size and wake up another.😳

Since I’ve become a SAHM (you all know what that is by now, lol) his growth spurts scare me. Everything breaks down to a dollar amount. I’m almost tempted to throw a “my baby’s growing too fast” shower!πŸ™ƒ It’s 2019, we’re done with tradition right?!?! I should just be a trendsetter! Lol!! Maybe I’ll work up the nerve to actually do it. Who knows?!?!

Aside from his physical growth, my AJ’s personality is blossoming. His sense of humor tickles me. He has his dad’s laugh and my goofy behavior when he gets sleepy.🀣🀣 Every. Single. Thing is funny to me when I’m tired, he’s the same way.😊 He has his dad’s patience and my frustration when I can’t figure something out. He has my precocious ways and his dad’s curiosity. He seriously the perfect combination of us, even his looks.πŸ’™πŸ’™

Having a baby at 35 has been the epitome of life changing. I don’t believe I would’ve left my job if I didn’t become a mom. I’m learning SO much about myself as a person in general. I see my strengths: an amazing caretaker, loving mother, detail oriented, determined and wise. However I also see the areas I could use development: patience, control (I try so hard to control everything, it’s awful), trust in God and others to take care of my son and negative thinking. That one, terrible!! πŸ˜“ It’s so exhausting. I think the worst, every time. I’m sure I need to talk to someone about this. It can’t be healthy.😣

All in all, becoming a parent has made me brave and intentional about being whole. Emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally. I want to be my best self. I don’t ever want my son sitting in therapy because of Mommy wounds.😳 I know what that’s like. And I’m determined to give him the best foundation possible. I know I’m human. I know I’ll make mistakes. I also know, he doesn’t have to suffer at my hands. It starts with me becoming well. Stay tuned….

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New Mommy…Week 29

I get to wake up to this precious boy every morning.AJ is such. a. blessing. I am so honored to call him son. Being his mother is a privilege.❀️ He has no idea how many people prayed for his conception, gestation and delivery. His life has changed ours, greatly.πŸ’™

If you don’t know, I quit my job 2 months ago for a few reasons but he played a major role. As a 35 year old, first time mom I have zero interest in sending my son to daycare to work in a thankless job and poor environment.πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ I’d been feeling like leaving for 3 years, just couldn’t rationalize walking away from a “good” job. Until my son gave me the courage to make a decision and go after my dreams.😊

Between my love for him, my desire to be whole and my husband’s encouragement; I left a Human Resources job. One in which I did well. But I knew I wanted more. Now I am a stay at home mom, wife and budding entrepreneur.πŸ˜‰ This is the scariest most fulfilling thing I’ve ever felt. It’s a dichotomy for sure. But I’m determined to do it.

I look forward to the day I tell my beautiful son how much his existence inspired Mommy. I want him to be proud of me, for sure. What I desire most is my life be an example of chasing your dreams, betting on yourself and trusting God. I want him to know he can do it.😍

I also want to show myself I can do it! I’m trailblazing in my family. It’s rough, scary, confusing and such. But baby when I tell you I’m more free than I’ve ever been….you’ll just have to follow along to watch it all unfold.😌

Until the next time…..

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New Mommy….Week 28

Who knew a onesie could make you cry?!?!

I finally cleaned out AJ’s closer. He’ll be 7 months in 2 weeks….so I had to get rid of all his newborn-3 month clothes.πŸ™ƒ Then I picked up this onesie. I cried. I can’t believe my baby was that small at one point. Although he wasn’t a “small” baby. I had him at 38 weeks, he was 8 pounds, 13 ounces. 😳 I got so emotional thinking about his short time here.

And it’s worst because he had his first fall off my bed this week. Just thinking about his milestones have me in my feelings.😒 Last night he crawled backwards. He’s staring to form his mouth to say the dreaded “Da Da”.🀣🀣 He’s drinking from a cup. He’s holding food in his hand. My baby is no longer my helpless newborn.😊

I miss those days. Although I suffered postpartum depression; I miss the early days. They were hard but rewarding. We made it!❀️

Now, πŸ—£I’m still breastfeeding! It’s no longer hard or awkward; other than his sudden infatuation with pinching my nips.πŸ˜³πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ I’m so proud of us. I didn’t have a lot of breastfeeding knowledge. I wanted to quit early on. But I’m so glad I didn’t! Even now, some people are encouraging me to get him off the boob; I curve all those comments. My baby will self wean. I’ll put no demands on him. Not with this.😌

I’ve also been a SAHM (stay at home mom) for 7 weeks now. It’s still scary and I still love it. Shortly, once I focus and pull things in: I’ll be a mompreneur. So excited!😍 You’ll year more soon!

Until the next time….

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New Mommy….Week 27

It’s almost been 7 months since I became a mom.😊 Of course, my life has changed dramatically. My son means the world to me.

Now that he’s getting older, I’m enjoying motherhood much more than I had previously.😳 Those first 3 months almost πŸ‘πŸΌtook πŸ‘πŸΌme πŸ‘πŸΌout!! Adjusting to it all was so hard! I actually had mild postpartum depression (although it felt like the end of the world, mild where?!?). Plus I had a winter baby. Being stuck in the house while feeling as though you’re losing your mind?!?! Terrible!!😒 I loved my son with everything in me but the PPD overshadowed that daily. *side note* if your are dealing with any ill feelings, dark thoughts are just feeling off…contact your OB ASAP!! There’s nothing to be ashamed of. We go through SO much carrying and delivering our babies. Something’s bound to be different once they arrive and it’s OKAY!!πŸ˜‰

My favorite part of the day with AJ (currently) is the morning. He wakes up with SO many smiles! He looks so excited to see us! Then he gives morning kisses!❀️❀️ I melt, every single day. I love watching his curiosity blossom. He’s so encouraging to my heart. He has no clue he’s teaching his mom to dream again. He’s blessing me, literally. He’s also my new shopping buddy (as pictured above)!πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

I’m pretty sure he’s going to skip crawling and go straight to walking, lol! He doesn’t scoot or get on all fours, he pulls up on anything around him and stands! 🀣 He’s also enjoys feeding himself these days. It’s pretty neat to watch!

I have so much I could say but I’ll wait! I plan to chronicle the first year! We have 25 weeks left! I’ll also get the first 6 months posted here so you can follow along! It might be out of order since I did Facebook first but you’ll get it! Lol!

Until the next time…..

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