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๐ŸšจNew Mommy…Week 26

My baby turned 6 months this week!!๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

I’m so excited and terrified at the same time! Watching him gain independence causes me to smile and be proud while simultaneously fast forwarding to the days he won’t need me as much.๐Ÿ˜ข Such oxymoronic feelings!! I’m sure moms understand!

AJ is full of life! He tries everything repeatedly, only allowing frustration to set in for seconds.๐Ÿ˜ข It’s so encouraging, oh to be a child again! I pray I never do anything to inhibit his imagination, deter his determination or discourage his effort.โค๏ธ He reminds me everyday to keep dreaming! Keep trying! He has no idea how he motivates me.

6 months postpartum feels….better.๐Ÿ™ƒ I am certainly in a much more calm state of mind than previously. I cry much less. When I do, the tears are typically of pride and gratefulness. I never knew my heart could be so full. My journey yo motherhood was long, hard and heartbreaking. But it was all worth it.๐Ÿ˜

Now, the hard part about 6 months postpartum?!?! My body!!๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ Initially I made amazing progress. Lately, I’ve hit a roadblock! I don’t like my body. I can’t figure out my “mom style”๐Ÿ˜ณ I’m no longer comfortable wearing certain things. It’s odd. I’ll get through it, I’m sure!๐Ÿ’™

I’m also dealing with becoming a stay at home mom. It’s truly and adjustment. Whew! I’ll talk about it more next time! Don’t wanna bore you! ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

Until the next time…

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Week One: New Mommy

AJ is one week old today!โ˜บ๏ธ Iโ€™ve officially been a mommy for 7 days. In true fashion of myself…lemme tell yโ€™all about it!๐Ÿ˜‚

First of all…I am TIED (thatโ€™s tired for my proper readers)๐Ÿ˜‚

I had him via c-section and that experience is traumatic ok? I donโ€™t care what anyone else says. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

I have to care for him 24-7…..whew….take me back to my babysitting days. It was SO temporary. Lol!๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

Donโ€™t even get me started on breastfeeding!!!๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ˜ค

I am the most emotionally exhausted Iโ€™ve been in my entire life. ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธWho knew you could cry so many tears in a single 24 hour period?!?! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ AND, so many different tears?? One minute they are happy, then proud, then amazed, then tired, then feeling like โ€œwhat have I signed up forโ€, then โ€œI love my husband so muchโ€, then โ€œI love my son so muchโ€ then God knows what! I literally feel insane! ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ

My husband has been a trooper.๐Ÿ˜Š I honestly have a new found respect and wonder for single moms. How do yโ€™all do it? How? Yโ€™all so strong! Iโ€™ve cried in my husbandโ€™s arms so much youโ€™d think Iโ€™m the newborn!๐Ÿ˜€ Yโ€™all really are amazing!!

My pediatrician started our conversation reading my fertility and child loss history then preceded to state โ€œWow, you went through a lot to get him here. Thank God he is hereโ€! ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญWhen I tell yโ€™all I almost went into a baptist fit!!!๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿป (ask your churchy friends what that is, lol!) He just didnt know what he said to me! LOL!

Overall, motherhood is NO punk.๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ Sheโ€™s actually a bully in my opinion! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ But I am so thrilled to have my son even when Iโ€™m overwhelmed (which is quite often at this point, lol!)

I honestly did not realize how strong women truly are until this phase of my life. We are EVERYTHING! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’…๐Ÿผ

Until the next time..