In 10 days I’ll be the mother of an 8 month old infant boy.☺️ Yesterday, I spent my first night away from him.😥 Boy was it tough!
So….I celebrated a really good friend’s (like one of my best friends ever) birthday. She wanted to have a sleepover.🙃 I just knew my baby would be invited.🤣🤣 She knows how I feel about him. She also loves him just the same. But, to my surprise she stuck to her “no kids allowed” invite.
I. Was. Devastated!!😫
What was my breastfed infant going to do all night without his mommy? And boobies??🤔 My mind was racing and I was a little more than withdrawn from our group of friends. All I could think about was my son waking in the middle of the night to eat and comfort nurse and I wouldn’t be there!!😩😩
Turns out…he and my husband were just fine! Lol!! They had a great night. Meanwhile I had to force myself to get into the festivities. And I’m so glad I did. It was one of the best nights I’ve had in quite sometime.☺️
I learned my husband is a capable father. My baby can survive without me….and I without him.💪🏼💪🏼 You’d think I knew that. And I did. In my head. It’s a totally different experience to understand something in your heart.😌 I had to trust my friend knew what I needed. I had to trust my husband knew what our son needed. I had to trust myself.😳😳 It was SO hard at first but I’m really happy I did it.
I can’t say at all this will become my new norm. However, I’ll try my best moving forward to trust my support system and allow myself a moment. I’ll still be an amazing mom just a little more sane.🤣🤣
I hope you offer yourself the same grace and minute as a mom. We need it. More than we know.💖💖
Until the next time….