In 10 days I’ll be the mother of an 8 month old infant boy.βΊοΈ Yesterday, I spent my first night away from him.π₯ Boy was it tough!
So….I celebrated a really good friend’s (like one of my best friends ever) birthday. She wanted to have a sleepover.π I just knew my baby would be invited.π€£π€£ She knows how I feel about him. She also loves him just the same. But, to my surprise she stuck to her “no kids allowed” invite.
I. Was. Devastated!!π«
What was my breastfed infant going to do all night without his mommy? And boobies??π€ My mind was racing and I was a little more than withdrawn from our group of friends. All I could think about was my son waking in the middle of the night to eat and comfort nurse and I wouldn’t be there!!π©π©
Turns out…he and my husband were just fine! Lol!! They had a great night. Meanwhile I had to force myself to get into the festivities. And I’m so glad I did. It was one of the best nights I’ve had in quite sometime.βΊοΈ
I learned my husband is a capable father. My baby can survive without me….and I without him.πͺπΌπͺπΌ You’d think I knew that. And I did. In my head. It’s a totally different experience to understand something in your heart.π I had to trust my friend knew what I needed. I had to trust my husband knew what our son needed. I had to trust myself.π³π³ It was SO hard at first but I’m really happy I did it.
I can’t say at all this will become my new norm. However, I’ll try my best moving forward to trust my support system and allow myself a moment. I’ll still be an amazing mom just a little more sane.π€£π€£
I hope you offer yourself the same grace and minute as a mom. We need it. More than we know.ππ
Until the next time….
Iβm proud of you, You survived it, and learned everything will be fine.
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